Ugh I need advice.......I'm blogging
Posted: Mon Aug 06, 2007 9:39 pm
THis is a long read, but please bear with me. I really can't figure out what to do.
So when I was pregnant with my youngest son, who is now 6, I worked for the same employer I work for now. I worked at the customer service desk, where I excelled at my job. I transferred with the company when we (the ex husband and I) decided to move closer to his family. Things were even better at the customer service department at the new store, but my dept. manager had Lupus and had to take some time off. I stepped up and took care of all the scheduling, reports, etc etc. I even came in once a week when I was on maternity leave to make sure the paper work got done. When I came back, I was given a pay raise, but not the title of Supervisor. This went on for a few months, and they decided to interview for the position when the Lupus lady officially quit. I interviewed, I thought it went well, and they gave it to a Kitchen Designer who had been with the company for three weeks. Then, to add insult to injury, they asked me to train him. I left a few weeks later after giving my two weeks notice.
Jump ahead 5 or so years. I started again with the company last July. In my interview he wanted me to be a cashier, and I told him flat out no. I wanted something more challenging, and explained my last tour of duty with the company. He put me in the sales department I am now. I told him I was interested in management, and he told me not to worry, some positions were opening up, and he would keep me in mind. So the first position that came open, I had only been back with the company for a month, so I wasn't too shocked when I was not interviewed. Then another position came open, and again, I was not interviewed, and I was told because they had found someone who was a professional plumber to take over the department.
Ok, that makes sense. I patiently wait, and the Customer Service desk supervisor position opens up, and I get excited becasue I had done this before, and I am good at it. I was told I didn't interview well and they gave it to a guy who was part time up until that point but just retired from the Navy, and wanted to stay with the company, but had to have X amount of money and the only way they could afford to pay him that was to promote him. Cool, he's a great guy, and is turning out very well.
Then a few weeks ago another department head position came up, and, as most of you know, I interviewed. According to the interviewer, I aced the interview except for when he asked me if I was shaking because I was nervous, and I said yes. I was honest about it, we joked around about it and I thought that was it. I found out later that the reason I really didn't get the position was because of some store politics. Someone had transferred from California and was forced to take a demotion because no supervisor positions were open. Then a few months later when an old supervisor that had transferred away had decided to transfer back, they created a position for him to transfer back to and keep his position. It caused a bit of a stink. I still think I am a harder worker than the last guy, but whatever. I knew my supervisor was on his way out the door.
So last Sunday it happened. My supervisor quit. My Assistant manager called me into the office today to tell me that he would not consider me for the position because I was not ready. I asked him why he felt that way. He told me to tell him why I thought I would be a good supervisor. I laid the facts out.
I have met or excelled at all the goals put in front of me. Whenever we need help, I am the one there. I work split shifts, I come in and work a 6am -3pm shift, I go home feed my family, put my munchkin to bed, and go back to work 10pm to 4am to get teh store ready for a big walk the next morning. When we close, I am the only one in my department to stay until its done. I don't clock out when the schedule says to go home. I clock out when the job is done. He agreed, he told me I was the best worker in my department.
His main problems were the following. My mouth. What can I say, I'm a pervert and I am very blunt and putspoken. Not a great combo. You can say anything, and I can make a sexual innuendo out of it. I'm serious, but, we have had that talk before and I pointed out that and also that I have been working very hard at keeping my mouth shut. Which he admitted.
His second point was that if I really wanted the position, I would have been doing my old supervisor's paperwork while he was still there. I told him that I offered to help him on more than one seperate occasion, and he always said no, I have it under control. His response was "You should have checked." Checked what? The paperwork to make sure he wasn't lying? What am I supposed to be his babysitter? He thinks I should be my supervisors "go to guy". I pointed out that I was and gave several examples of how I had made sure things got done that he asked to get done.
I have been busting my ass for the last year to get a promotion, and when the department comes up I really want, I am told I am not good enough, but keep doing what I am doing, AND make sure to do all the work for the supervisor that seperates the supervisor from a regular employee and he will consider a promotion next time, which could be another year.
I feel so fucking used. I am not just bitching when I say I do more than most others, AND to top it off, I am the lowest paid person in my department. THe guy that has been there 10 years makes $6 an hour more than me. Granted he has been there for 10 years, but he doesnt DO anything but is a fixture because he is the "pro" meaning he used to install floors for a living for 15 years before coming to work there. There is another girl in our department that makes $3 more an hour than I do. She just got back from maternity leave, she is great at paperwork and computer work, but not any of the manual labor and because of her very limited schedule, she can only work part time. The other guy in my department makes $3 an hour more than me, and HE JUST STARTED!! He isn't even ranked as high as I am on the pay scale.
I got a whopping 50 cent raise. I make just enough to not qualify for help from the state, but not enough to feed my family or get my own apartment. I have to live with my brother. I drive a car that leaks oil. I paid cash for it because I can't afford a monthly payment. Yet I am always the one that bends over backwards for anyone who asks.
I want to transfer, but that means a 45 minute drive, and I dont have a very reliable car. NOTHING in this area will pay me what I need to make. I love the poeple I work with, I am just so frustrated I am literally crying as I type this up.
What should I do?
So when I was pregnant with my youngest son, who is now 6, I worked for the same employer I work for now. I worked at the customer service desk, where I excelled at my job. I transferred with the company when we (the ex husband and I) decided to move closer to his family. Things were even better at the customer service department at the new store, but my dept. manager had Lupus and had to take some time off. I stepped up and took care of all the scheduling, reports, etc etc. I even came in once a week when I was on maternity leave to make sure the paper work got done. When I came back, I was given a pay raise, but not the title of Supervisor. This went on for a few months, and they decided to interview for the position when the Lupus lady officially quit. I interviewed, I thought it went well, and they gave it to a Kitchen Designer who had been with the company for three weeks. Then, to add insult to injury, they asked me to train him. I left a few weeks later after giving my two weeks notice.
Jump ahead 5 or so years. I started again with the company last July. In my interview he wanted me to be a cashier, and I told him flat out no. I wanted something more challenging, and explained my last tour of duty with the company. He put me in the sales department I am now. I told him I was interested in management, and he told me not to worry, some positions were opening up, and he would keep me in mind. So the first position that came open, I had only been back with the company for a month, so I wasn't too shocked when I was not interviewed. Then another position came open, and again, I was not interviewed, and I was told because they had found someone who was a professional plumber to take over the department.
Ok, that makes sense. I patiently wait, and the Customer Service desk supervisor position opens up, and I get excited becasue I had done this before, and I am good at it. I was told I didn't interview well and they gave it to a guy who was part time up until that point but just retired from the Navy, and wanted to stay with the company, but had to have X amount of money and the only way they could afford to pay him that was to promote him. Cool, he's a great guy, and is turning out very well.
Then a few weeks ago another department head position came up, and, as most of you know, I interviewed. According to the interviewer, I aced the interview except for when he asked me if I was shaking because I was nervous, and I said yes. I was honest about it, we joked around about it and I thought that was it. I found out later that the reason I really didn't get the position was because of some store politics. Someone had transferred from California and was forced to take a demotion because no supervisor positions were open. Then a few months later when an old supervisor that had transferred away had decided to transfer back, they created a position for him to transfer back to and keep his position. It caused a bit of a stink. I still think I am a harder worker than the last guy, but whatever. I knew my supervisor was on his way out the door.
So last Sunday it happened. My supervisor quit. My Assistant manager called me into the office today to tell me that he would not consider me for the position because I was not ready. I asked him why he felt that way. He told me to tell him why I thought I would be a good supervisor. I laid the facts out.
I have met or excelled at all the goals put in front of me. Whenever we need help, I am the one there. I work split shifts, I come in and work a 6am -3pm shift, I go home feed my family, put my munchkin to bed, and go back to work 10pm to 4am to get teh store ready for a big walk the next morning. When we close, I am the only one in my department to stay until its done. I don't clock out when the schedule says to go home. I clock out when the job is done. He agreed, he told me I was the best worker in my department.
His main problems were the following. My mouth. What can I say, I'm a pervert and I am very blunt and putspoken. Not a great combo. You can say anything, and I can make a sexual innuendo out of it. I'm serious, but, we have had that talk before and I pointed out that and also that I have been working very hard at keeping my mouth shut. Which he admitted.
His second point was that if I really wanted the position, I would have been doing my old supervisor's paperwork while he was still there. I told him that I offered to help him on more than one seperate occasion, and he always said no, I have it under control. His response was "You should have checked." Checked what? The paperwork to make sure he wasn't lying? What am I supposed to be his babysitter? He thinks I should be my supervisors "go to guy". I pointed out that I was and gave several examples of how I had made sure things got done that he asked to get done.
I have been busting my ass for the last year to get a promotion, and when the department comes up I really want, I am told I am not good enough, but keep doing what I am doing, AND make sure to do all the work for the supervisor that seperates the supervisor from a regular employee and he will consider a promotion next time, which could be another year.
I feel so fucking used. I am not just bitching when I say I do more than most others, AND to top it off, I am the lowest paid person in my department. THe guy that has been there 10 years makes $6 an hour more than me. Granted he has been there for 10 years, but he doesnt DO anything but is a fixture because he is the "pro" meaning he used to install floors for a living for 15 years before coming to work there. There is another girl in our department that makes $3 more an hour than I do. She just got back from maternity leave, she is great at paperwork and computer work, but not any of the manual labor and because of her very limited schedule, she can only work part time. The other guy in my department makes $3 an hour more than me, and HE JUST STARTED!! He isn't even ranked as high as I am on the pay scale.
I got a whopping 50 cent raise. I make just enough to not qualify for help from the state, but not enough to feed my family or get my own apartment. I have to live with my brother. I drive a car that leaks oil. I paid cash for it because I can't afford a monthly payment. Yet I am always the one that bends over backwards for anyone who asks.
I want to transfer, but that means a 45 minute drive, and I dont have a very reliable car. NOTHING in this area will pay me what I need to make. I love the poeple I work with, I am just so frustrated I am literally crying as I type this up.
What should I do?