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I am a married woman with kids. I am not aroused by my husband and fake it all the time. He doesn't know. I just started looking at porn on the internet. I masturbate to get some relief. I feel horrible and guilty every time.
Well this is crazy. I'm writing out my secret. I've been dealing with porn for such a long time since Jr. High. My friends introduce it to me, in fact it may have been earlier, I just may have surpressed it. I am in the ministry, and well I told myself that when I got into ministry that's it I can't do it anymore view porn that is. Because before I would view porn in secret and would even go to strip clubs, and I've called escorts and done some things with them and I did this all in secret it was like living a double life.
On one hand I said and protrayed to everyone that I was a follower of Christ and yet on the other hand I was doing all these things. I felt so much like a loser cause how could I be involved with porn and strip clubs and escorts while training to be in the minsitry. At times I would feel soooo sick and ashamed of what I was doing. I would tell myself ok that is the last time, but yet a few days, a few weeks or a few months later I would find myself in those very things again. And even when I got into the ministry, the first few months I did well no viewing porn or anything cause I was now in a smaller town, I felt that I couldn't do that cause I didn't want anyone to see me.
Well then I found out about free downloads of porn on Limewire, and well then I started to download this stuff. And I would view it. And again this sick feeling would rise up and then the whole guilt deal would happen. Then I would say "ok" no more and what do you, I would do it again a few months later. It's been just a few weeks since the last time I've viewed, and I ask that you would KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS PLEASE!!!!!!!! I no longer want to be a bad example of a follower of Christ, I want to bring glory to his name in my private and public life. So there I said it, I'm a addict of Porn, but by the grace of God, I'll have the strength to overcome it. woah....I've now said it PLEASE REMEMBER TO PRAY FOR ME!!!
I am a 21 year old college student-athlete who loves the Lord and am very grateful for all the blessings He has given me. I feel like I am living a double life in the way that I come off as a "perfect" person to my coach, but in actuality I have a very active social life. I have overcome desiring to be sexual with guys, but I just can't stop going out and drinking and sometimes smoking. I feel like that is all there is to do at night in college to meet people. I listen to the world when it says to go out and have fun, especially when in college, but I know that I am not meant to live the "worldly" life. I want to do great things with the church, but I just feel being in college with my sport and social life that I just can't.
Gaazy wrote:Now vonk on the other hand, is one of the most self absorbed know it alls in my memory of this site. Ive always thought so, and I still cant understand why in gods name he is here
arlos wrote:Mindia, I'd never slam someone for being human, I think you know that. Where the irony enters the picture is so many of these types like to present a air of superiority (A holier-than-thou attitude, if you will) because they are supposedly so devout, and yet they're no different than anyone else.
If not for that attitude, there'd be nothing to laugh at. Act all high and mighty and superior while being no different, then when those failings are pointed out, damn right I'll laugh.
-Arlos
As you've probably noticed, I don't preach to anybody anymore. I don't have an elitist attitude
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