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Harrison wrote:Sometimes, usually right before I go to bed, I feel bad for some of the evil shit I say to people even if they deserve it.

I wake up and that momentary weakness has subsided. Does this happen to you guys? Like you're nicer when you're tired/about to go to sleep?

Yeah I know what you mean. You know how people say "x is really a nice person deep down". I think that awake you is that jerk, and the tired you is what's deep down.

Yeah, but I'm only a jerk to people that actually deserve it. I don't have the capacity to be mean to people anymore.

I even feel bad for the shit I've said about my ex, and she certainly deserves much worse than anything I can merely *say*.

I think I'm just growing soft.

But I'll still crush the windpipe of the fat fuck she left me for...I'm growing a bit tired of catching whispers of his shit-talking through circles of friends.

you make yourself sound like God with the ability to know who deserves what...

it's called guilt, and it's a waste of time. keep moving, I don't remember what Jay said in this thread and if he hadn't said anything, I probably wouldn't ever remember. unless I went back and read it. which I still haven't =)

Don't need to be God to judge shitbags.

but it sure is a waste of time

I have milliseconds to spare...

Drem wrote:but it sure is a waste of time

Lol that's pretty hypocritical. You pass judgment on people all the time.

well i've got to do something. we can't all have big shiny BMWs to derive our sense of self-worth from

Hey I'm just sayin. I pass judgment on people and I don't claim that I don't or blast people that do. I think that it's an automatic reaction. Or maybe I'm misinterpreting what you're saying and what you actually mean is that passing judgment on a person is a waste of time that you enjoy indulging in. Who knows?

And if it's all the same to you I do derive some self worth from the BMW as well as anything in my life that I worked my ass off to earn, both material and not. I think of myself very highly considering all the things that I can derive self worth from.

Ashly what the fuck....