sleepless nt.

Spazz · Post by **Spazz** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:09 am

That ever happen to you guys where your just frustrated with how things are goin to a point where you cant even relax? Michigans job situation, longtime girl problems,longing for my family whos no longer here,loss of enjoyment in things you love (cage fighting smokin weed pool music etc) and a lot of self doubt are heavy upon my mind tonight. I dont talk about myself a lot here but im not really feelin myself tonight.

Post by **Lueyen** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:27 am

It sounds like you are a bit depressed, and yea been there done that. How long have you been feeling like this?

KILL · Post by **KILL** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:27 am

tylenol pm will put me out if my mind is too busy for sleep.

if i were in michigan with no family and a job i wasnt satisfied with, i would be packing my shit and heading for somewhere with sunshine and bikinis. life is too short to let it suck.

Post by **Martrae** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:52 am

Winter blahs, hun...it's the lack of sunshine.

Try exercising a little more and maybe even going tanning.

araby · Post by **araby** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:59 am

I can't stop crying sometimes. tonight the tears are really big and fat and they don't even want to drop out of my eyes they just sit there and make me sadder.

Spazz · Post by **Spazz** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 1:00 am

I have a sister so im not familyless but i miss my mom more than ever as of late. My mom was my guiding light and since she passed away i kinda been floundering in life. I been feeling really fucked up in my own life since prolly decemberish id say but its ben real tense as of late.

As for the tylonal pm I take them like candy and im afraid if i keep taken more and more im gonna have a real problem. Far as the sun and bikinis go im tryin to get there.

Spazz · Post by **Spazz** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 1:01 am

Whats wrong with you araby ?

araby · Post by **araby** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 1:04 am

spazz I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling yourself. it helps me when I'm feeling down to help someone else. if we hung out tomorrow, we might end up laughing a lot or crying a lot.

araby · Post by **araby** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 1:05 am

love is hard to let go of sometimes and I really, really miss my home and boyfriend and cats and haven't had anyone touch me in three weeks and just having the Japanese woman's hands in my hair today made me want to go home so someone will hug me.

Post by **Martrae** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 1:09 am

So...why aren't you home?

araby · Post by **araby** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 1:12 am

I don't really have a home right now :cry:

Jennay · Post by **Jennay** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 2:32 am

I felt that way most of the time when I lived in Michigan Spazz, the winter months were especially depressing. I think it's the lack of sunshine to be honest...that and there isn't much to do except bowl and go out to movies and dinner =/

Araby come live with me in San Diego! It's sunny and warm all of the time!

Zanchief · Post by **Zanchief** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 7:09 am

araby wrote:love is hard to let go of sometimes and I really, really miss my home and boyfriend and cats and haven't had anyone touch me in three weeks and just having the Japanese woman's hands in my hair today made me want to go home so someone will hug me.

I hear Taxx is available.

kinghooter00 · Post by **kinghooter00** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 7:16 am

When i'm feeling down and out, i like having a few beers and listening to some hard rock. Nothing gets the stress out like screaming at the top of your lungs while mellowing out over a beer. I guess that could be completely opposite for some people though.
Washing dishes makes me relax too.... Kind of weird, don't cha think?? :dunno:

Harrison · Post by **Harrison** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 8:59 am

Zanchief wrote:
araby wrote:love is hard to let go of sometimes and I really, really miss my home and boyfriend and cats and haven't had anyone touch me in three weeks and just having the Japanese woman's hands in my hair today made me want to go home so someone will hug me.

I hear Taxx is available.

I didn't intend it at all, but I chuckled.

If it makes anyone feel any better, I have another intestinal infection that is now in the lining of my stomach.

Severe pain for about a week now, just annoying pain for about a month...

Zanchief · Post by **Zanchief** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 9:04 am

Harrison wrote:
Zanchief wrote:
araby wrote:love is hard to let go of sometimes and I really, really miss my home and boyfriend and cats and haven't had anyone touch me in three weeks and just having the Japanese woman's hands in my hair today made me want to go home so someone will hug me.

I hear Taxx is available.

I didn't intend it at all, but I chuckled.

If it makes anyone feel any better, I have another intestinal infection that is now in the lining of my stomach.

Severe pain for about a week now, just annoying pain for about a month...

Any chance of death?

Harrison · Post by **Harrison** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 9:06 am

If a doctor actually knew what the fuck was wrong with me, I would know the answer.

They just told me it was a virus (again) and we're waiting on numerous test results.

If the results come back inconclusive, I get more blood taken from me....yay.

kaharthemad · Post by **kaharthemad** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 9:40 am

Zanchief wrote:I hear Taxx is available.

snap

kaharthemad · Post by **kaharthemad** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 9:41 am

Harrison wrote:If a doctor actually knew what the fuck was wrong with me, I would know the answer.

They just told me it was a virus (again) and we're waiting on numerous test results.

If the results come back inconclusive, I get more blood taken from me....yay.

Harrison · Post by **Harrison** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 9:52 am

She may have a defibrillator, but she can touch me all she wants.

Tacks · Post by **Tacks** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 10:11 am

Zanchief wrote:
araby wrote:love is hard to let go of sometimes and I really, really miss my home and boyfriend and cats and haven't had anyone touch me in three weeks and just having the Japanese woman's hands in my hair today made me want to go home so someone will hug me.

I hear Taxx is available.

news to me

Jay · Post by **Jay** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:39 pm

spazz you quit smoking weed or something? I know doing that can lead to depression.

Otherwise man, all I can tell ya is I've been there done that and you can survive. There were times I wasn't proud of what I did to survive, but I survived. If I were you, I'd get some loans together and get yourself certified or skilled in something. Quit smoking weed and chillin all the time.

araby · Post by **araby** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:48 pm

I've never been to san diego and can't wait to go there one day, but I can't live that far from my family =)

I've only been gone a week and already feel their absence too much...especially my little boy and my kitty cats. ack!! change the subject...

I do not recommend drinking beer to feel better emotionally because alcohol is a depressant, and oftentimes our depressions stem from negative thoughts. Someone who is mentally stable enough to control their negative thoughts might be able to distort reality with alcohol, weed, or other drugs without it affecting their mood or outlook. But-a person already having a difficult time with how to sort negative emotions should not distort their reality. they risk becoming even more depressed. I think this is why it's so much easier for us to drink/party when we're young, because when we're young we don't have a care in the world!

anyway I just had a bad night and that happens to all of us. I was in good company last night and spazz started this thread with good intentions and it helped me to know that I'm not the only person who stays up at night trying to find ways to keep my mind off of what is sad.

chin up, cheer up. -ryan adams

Zanchief · Post by **Zanchief** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:51 pm

Again with the voodoo magic.

Jay · Post by **Jay** » Wed Feb 07, 2007 12:55 pm

Everyone let's group /hug! yay