What the fuck?

[Gargamellow]

I put Virra on a one-way flight back to Maine today.

Did I do the right thing?

I am going infuckingsane. I swear I thought this through. I gave him a year extra to live here after I broke up with him. But now I am sad anyway. What the fuck is wrong with me? I know our love is dead.

So what the fuck?

Love,

Amanda

[Tossica]

Living together for a year after breaking up isn't so great but in the end, sending him packing is probably the right thing to do!

[Tikker]

i concur
breaking up sucks

[Trielelvan]

/e-hugs

It always hurts babe. No matter how much you prepare for it, especially since he was part of your life for so long.
Nothing wrong with you. You're fine and did the right thing.

[Iccarra]

I don't know if I could manage to let someone live with me that long after a break-up. It's gotta be hard, either way. If you two were together a long time and he's finally moved out you've got to be feeling the loss even if it was just having his company in the end.

Gotta love it when those girlie emotions decide to grab hold.

[Gargamellow]

This is sucking. I am so alone. It is so tempting to just give up and give in.

I don't understand why everyone else in the world gets to have "normal" relationships and I don't. I don't even know if I believe in love.

Maybe love is something stupid people made up?

All I know is I can't find it. It's supposed to be out there. But it's a crock of shit.

I hate this. I can barely breathe.

I feel sorry for anyone who is feeling this.

[Harrison]

What the fuck is a normal relationship? lol

[Gargamellow]

I don't know. I just know I am not any good at it.

[Harrison]

Pffft, you don't have to be "good at it". Everyone is compatible with someone.

Don't settle for just anyone and look for that someone.

[Iccarra]

...and sometimes, if you stop looking that someone will find you instead. I'm a firm believer that things happen for a reason. It might just take you a while to figure out what that reason was...or you might never find out. Just my 2cp.

Either way you're going to have your ups and downs for a while, just don't hold it in and vent to whomever will listen. (It helps a ton, trust me.) I certainly hope things get better for you.

[Drem]

it's the difference between finding someone you "want" and finding someone you "need"

love is a choice

[Gargamellow]

I don't know how to NOT look for someone. I have always focused on being with someone. I am a mom and it's not easy having three kids and being alone. I felt alone in my last two relationships.

I don't want that in my next one. I don't want anything but good conversation, great sex and compatibility to a certain extent.

I hate how being human gives me these needs I don't find rational whatsoever.

[Drem]

You just have to stop looking. Seems hard but it really isn't. I stopped looking after my last girlfriend more or less ruined my entire life (not something I'll be sharing here so don't ask. Ever.) and a year later at a job orientation I met this girl I'm with now and it's probably the most enjoyable and rewarding relationship I've ever had the pleasure of being in. I can't even say I enjoyed my last relationships at all, really. I just thought I had to be with someone so I tried to make them all work. In the end I was miserable in every relationship. But of course, I wanted them back when we broke up. That's a natural feeling that you can't really avoid all the time.

But this time I do whatever I want, whenever I want, and let her do her thing, too. I don't call her all the time and she doesn't call me all the time. It's a relationship that lets me still be me. Because I waited til some girl actually liked my personal qualities. Most of my other girlfriends just wanted to change me. It's great and if we argue it's about something really important and we never have the same argument twice. I love it. And it happened because I wasn't looking for it.

[Tikker]

you're 23....

[Drem]

Thanks for noticing

[Gargamellow]

Wow..a whole decade younger....you fucking kids are little round these parts.

[Jay]

Yes, Drem is young but I'm of the belief that relationships fail because people forget the feeling they had when they were in love at that young age. They get older and more cynical (or realistic as they'd say).

And Garg, just because the love isn't there doesn't mean you won't react to the comfort and familiarity in your life all of a sudden leaving. With that being said, you'll eventually be comfortable and familiar with the fact that he's gone. It takes time to adjust. Your loneliness on the other hand is something that is there now, and was there when he was there so it really hasn't changed much. Just occupy your time. Make career moves and what not and eventually you'll just kinda happen upon someone you might like.

[Gargamellow]

ya..that's my plan...i want to get into a comfy job that pays fairly well and get a phat red car of some sort...i need to do research and find one that is sexy and will be good on gas as well as look pimping when I put those fancy runner light thingys on the bottom of it

also it has to have a kick ass stereo system but that can wait

oh after I buy a car im going to find a new house to rent because this one i moved into a couple months ago is nice but i want to live somewhere that i don't have to worry about a pitbull ripping my child to shreds


pitbull fans: this dog across the street is trained to attack..please do not lecture me on how nice pits can be..thanks <3

[Jay]

So did you get a PSP for your kid this xmas?

[Gargamellow]

zach got one...madison and andrew got the ds

thanks for reminding me you are a punk ass bitch btw

[Jay]

Hey, you know what, really, I'm sorry for everything you're going through. Hope it gets better.

[Gargamellow]

I can't believe you are still sporting that false signature.

[Gaazy]

Im a late reader~

You should have kicked his ass out a long time ago. From what I remember thinking from years ago, he was worthless anyways.

[Gargamellow]

Why do people keep saying that? When did I give that impression?

[Tossica]

I don't recall anything negative being said about him.