happy 4th

[10sun]

"I sucked a lot of cock for coke once.
then I found God."

at least that is what Mindia told me once.

[Spazz]

I dont need to be on the dl im not ahsamed of it.

[Ginzburgh]

Ok, just don't wonder why you are continuously ridiculed.

[Maeya]

Doesn't matter if you're "ahsamed" of it or not. You still sound like an ignorant jackass.

[Gypsiyee]

well hello maeya! how weird, i was just thinking about you this morning and how i haven't seen you around in a while.

[Spazz]

Call me ignorant if you want. Im of the theory that if you have to keep secrets or on the dl than you shouldnt be doing whatever it is that your doing . I also think if all the people who used drugs were honest about it we might be able to change drug laws in our country.


You guys might find this hard to beleive but im really not some doped out loser living in my parents basement. I work , pay bills and own my own house just like most of you people.

[Maeya]

well hello maeya! how weird, i was just thinking about you this morning and how i haven't seen you around in a while.

Hello

School's been keeping me rather busy. Just finishing up my first semester of the nursing program. Summer semester kicks my ass.

[Harrison]

well this just sounds like a whole lot of girl trouble. sorry you're having a hard time, harrison - hope it turns around for you soon.

and i tend to agree.. getting blazed out of your mind with whatever combo cocktail you throw together is probably never a good idea. even with something as minor as pot, numbing yourself to reality only delays the inevitable.

Thanks.

It was everything at once. My girlfriend leaving me was just too much on top of what I had on my plate. It came out of nowhere.


I'm not going to lie. I envision on a daily basis how I want to die. I am not okay.

[Spazz]

DUde you dont really want to die your just feelin upset and raw. Sooner or later stoned outta your gord or not you will start feeling better.

[Ginzburgh]

Just talk to someone.

[Drem]

well this just sounds like a whole lot of girl trouble. sorry you're having a hard time, harrison - hope it turns around for you soon.

and i tend to agree.. getting blazed out of your mind with whatever combo cocktail you throw together is probably never a good idea. even with something as minor as pot, numbing yourself to reality only delays the inevitable.

Thanks.

It was everything at once. My girlfriend leaving me was just too much on top of what I had on my plate. It came out of nowhere.


I'm not going to lie. I envision on a daily basis how I want to die. I am not okay.

we're at the age where we can start over and over and over again. and over again. and again. just learn from this and move on. don't dwell on it k

[leah]

and if you need someone to talk to, i'm sure any one of us would be happy to give you a phone number or talk via chat/email. don't cope alone!

[Gypsiyee]

seriously, not talking about it is probably the worst thing you could do. as cliche as it is, sometimes getting it all out is the only way to move past things. otherwise, you just go over and over it in your head with only your perspective and reasoning without any chance at resolution. you'll probably look back someday and realize it probably wasn't just out of the blue and you'll see little signs here and there that alluded to it, but that definitely won't take the sting away. the most important thing you can do is stay busy and not lose sight of what your goals were before her - things will come around or they won't, but you can't lose who you are in your thoughts of someone else. if you don't worry about yourself, no one else will. life was worth living and turning around before her, and it'll continue to after her - keep focusing on improving yourself for you, and everything else will fall into place, with or without her.

[10sun]

we're at the age where we can start over and over and over again. and over again. and again. just learn from this and move on. don't dwell on it k

This is truth.

[Ginzburgh]

Harrison, reply so we know you're ok. I sent you a PM days ago and you didn't respond.

[10sun]

Wouldn't worry about him.

[Harrison]

I went camping for a week.

No, it didn't help. Sitting alone for hours on end is the same at home or in the middle of a forest.

Yeah, I found out my mother has cancer too. And, no one fucking told me. I hate my family. Radiation treatment starts Oct. 2nd.

This shit sundae just keeps adding scoops and I'm fucking full.

[Ginzburgh]

This shit sundae just keeps adding scoops and I'm fucking full.

I really do feel bad for you man. And I couldn't help but lol at this analogy.

[ClakarEQ]

O damn Harri, sorry man, try to keep strong for your mom

[Harrison]

I have my limits.

I don't know what I'm going to do if I lose my mother. It's like people who lead good lives get punished for it.