Ghost TOWN!

[Drem]

proxies = the same thing

[10sun]

reminds me of back in the day at tournies when people would whip out the Power 9 proxies and sleeves. You could just request that they put in the real cards & remove the sleeves. I had one guy forfeit for that very reason.

[Harrison]

I played magic quite a bit for a while.

I have thousands of cards sitting at the house of the fucking guy my girlfriend left me for. When I go to his house to reduce him into a bloody mass, I'm getting those back.

And, fuck you 10sun, fuck you.

[Spazz]

Thats right beat his ass down and walk out with your magic cards. If i was in MA id offer to go with you .

[Ginzburgh]

Yeah because it's really worth something ruining your life over. Fuck the cards and everything else that has to do with your girlfriend. Just write it off.

[10sun]

I played magic quite a bit for a while.

I have thousands of cards sitting at the house of the fucking guy my girlfriend left me for. When I go to his house to reduce him into a bloody mass, I'm getting those back.

And, fuck you 10sun, fuck you.

Glad to hear that you've found some direction again, misguided as it may be.

At the same time: NERD RAGE

Ugh, reminds me I bumped into a guy that I knew in high school who stole my inventory of red cards (about 1800 at the time)... and knocked up my cousin. I wanted to choke the living shit out of him more violently than I did 10 years ago, but then I just turned away and got another drink from the bar.

How was camping?

[Harrison]

It has nothing to do with magic cards. Negating your "nerd rage" bullshit. This guy used to be a close friend.

[10sun]

I was just saying, ten years from now, that will be the beginning of the story and there was also the interpersonal bullshit too and you'll have a good laugh.

[Harrison]

I doubt I'll be laughing.

I still hate people for shit they did to me 5 years ago. I don't believe in forgive and forget. That's how people get away with the things they do. No one is ever held responsible nor do they ever pay for it. It's disgusting.

[Drem]

What exactly did this guy do? You're gonna get pissed and go beat up your friend because your girlfriend left you? That's pretty pathetic

[Harrison]

He hasn't been my friend for a while now. He's the lowest level of shit for many reasons beyond this, but this put it over the fucking line.

I don't care if it's pathetic. He disrespected me when I told him to stop talking to my girlfriend months ago, and look what happened. He's fucking done.

[Ginzburgh]

Way to act like an adult.

[Harrison]

Excuse me if I don't buy into the belief that people who think they are above certain aspects of social interaction, such as physical altercations, are somehow better than others.

I've never even fought back when hit in my life except once.(...aside from training and classes) It never made me any better or worse for it. It's a false sense of morality. Pacifism is a crock of shit.

Some people deserve their asses beat, hard. Shit goes unpunished for far too long.

[Tikker]

just out of curiosity, but why all the rage at the dude?

why not at the chick?

[Harrison]

Oh, I hate her too. Believe me, I do.

I obviously won't go beating women. That would make me equally as much a shitbag.

Members of her family stopped talking to her for what she did.

[Gypsiyee]

I understand you're angry and hurt, Harrison, but what you need to realize in this moment is that homegirl was going to leave regardless. Stopping her from talking to someone certainly wouldn't have helped, and might have even escalated the problem.

If she left you for another guy, she would've left you for another reason in due time. It would've been a much bigger injustice to you had she stuck around pretending everything was fine and just continued to sneak around and do what she wanted to do. Just be glad it happened within the first few months of the relationship and not further down the line. Most relationships don't last forever.. it's just part of the process. It's not like you lost a bunch of time in your life because of her - you just started dating her this year, right? Getting into a fight isn't going to get things back to the way they were, and beating him bloody isn't going to make him want her less - so it's all for naught, really - so if you're still planning on the army, it's a whole lot of mess for nothing just to potentially fuck you career-wise. Is that really worth it for a girl you've dated less than a year? Likely not, I'd hope.

[Harrison]

I'm not foolish because of what happened. I know that she was going to leave me regardless, whatever the reason. Hindsight is 20/20, though.


I am thankful that I didn't leave for BCT and she did this to me while I was gone. I would have taken an m16 to my head. The only thing that saved me was being home and lots and lots of working out, and that was only barely.

She heard about my mom and tried talking to me today. She tried playing the fucking Jedi card and told me that I shouldn't hold onto hate like I do. I told her to rot in hell where she belongs. She told me that she's going to pray for me.

GOD DOESNT FUCKING CARE AND SURELY NOT BECAUSE SOME DIRTY WHORE ASKED TO "SAVE" SOMEONE

I'll take my fucking chances with whoever is in charge. I've lived my life a good person. I don't need some lying whore who goes to church to relay my messages for me.

[Ginzburgh]

Haha, she said she'd pray for you.

[Harrison]

She was serious. I really am lost as to how someone can change so much in the course of a month.

I don't want "help" from whatever it is she prays to. I've had enough "help" in my fucking life.

[Arlos]

I know we've not often seen eye to eye on things, but on this issue, I can tell you without hesitation that I understand much of what you are going through. You had your first real serious relationship, and it ended in a nightmare. Been there, done that. Without going into serious details, I'll just relate that I spent my 21st birthday on a 5 hour bus ride after getting kicked out and having my heart ripped out and stomped to pieces by someone I found out later never actually loved me but was just using me, and who at the same time convinced me that I deserved all the shit she did to me, and that it was all my fault. So yes, I understand what you are going through, and yes, it screwed me up in the head for quite a while. I've also dealt with my mother having cancer, though admittedly not at the same time as I went through that crap.

I wish I could tell you how to work through it, but that's something everyone has to work out for themselves. All I can give you is the following few things, and you are free to accept them or not as you wish, though I swear by everything I hold sacred that they are true:

1) Pain heals. I realize you may feel like it hurts more than anyone can know, but I assure you people have been there before and made it through. It may be slow, it may not be easy, but things WILL get better. There IS a light at the end of the tunnel that isn't an oncoming train. You may not see it yet, but it is there.

2) Don't let what you're going through stop you from going after other goals you had. If what you want is the army, KEEP PURSUING IT, and don't do anything stupid that would take it away from you, satisfying as it might be in the short run. Those goals may not seem as important right now as they once did, but if you don't pursue them, you'll regret that in the long run far more than you regret the relationship.

3) Don't try and take revenge, it just lowers you to their level. If they're that messed up they'd fuck you over, karma will get them in the end. The last I heard of the girl who screwed me over, for example, she was involved with a psycho guy who was abusive and would threaten suicide any time she'd mention leaving him, she was pregnant with his kid, and they were living together in a trailer park. All in all, far worse than anythign I could've done to her, and I got to still feel good about myself afterward.

4) Don't let this experience sour you on the idea of relationships. Easy to do, I assure you. Trusting seems impossible. But believe me, you will be hurting yourself worse than she ever could have if you disconnect and shut yourself off.


In any case, you can take those or leave them, it is up to you. You do have my wishes that things improve for you though, and that your mom's cancer turns out to be as yielding to treatment as my mother's was. Good luck.

-Arlos

[ClakarEQ]

Harri, it's her loss, not yours, see it for what it is, not what you thought it was or could have been, what ifs will never work and moving on is all that's left to do. I know this from what I bet is about the worst story one could tell in this space, I'll tell it in one sentence to hopefully convey my experience.

The best man of my wedding had a damn near year long affair with my first wife thru blackmail because he caught her cheating on me at a motel 8 that was in route to his work, with her boss whom she had also been fucking 6 months into our marriage, we were married at 21, lasted about 4 years, dated from high school.

I couldn't make it to the Dr. fast enough, I was grateful I was clean, as in no STD's. And no, I'm not kidding, that really did happen, yet here I am, about to turn 40, 2 wonderfull kids, loving wife, etc. It does get better.

[Harrison]

I appreciate the advice. I get nothing from my friends. The entire week I disappeared camping the only text I got was from Leah. Shows who cares, huh?

I am struggling with letting things go. I flop back and forth every few minutes. I feel I should be "better" and let it go like I always have. Then it comes to me that no one ever learns a lesson. People like my mom get cancer. I don't fucking get it.

FUCK OFF! My nose started bleeding for no fucking reason. Seriously, what did I do to piss God off so? WOOW REALLY!!!!! WTF IT WON'T STOP!

[Harrison]

Wow, fucking stupid amounts of blood. I am sick of this incessant stream of shit.

[Drem]

think positive receive positive

[Tikker]

I am struggling with letting things go. I flop back and forth every few minutes. I feel I should be "better" and let it go like I always have.

it sucks

everyone goes thru it at least once in their life tho

almost like a rite of passage